I Hope It's Gonna Make You Notice... {January 1, 10}

Sitting here in my house I am pretty sure there is a mouse in our vents... I hear a noise... but Mike is sleeping since after we got home he didn't feel well. Pretty proud of myself last night, had three beers in five hours - needless to say, I was the one who drove home. Though I will miss going out as much and being around that crowd, I am slowly noticing more and more what everyone is saying at those parties or clubs; "I hope it's going to make you notice... someone like me..." From the song "Use Somebody" I had an idea of cutting the song short and making it all about a party where the one you love is living it up with just about everyone but you... That's how I used to be, and seeing the loneliness in some of those faces last night while I was sober and not joining them - really made me realize. Then, I saw the faces of the ones partying, looking for attention, but when no one else was watching they were just numb. Trying to feel, look, and desire to be wanted and noticed. Didn't matter if their ho-ha was sticking out or not (though that was way embarrassing, very funny!). All in all I had a great night out with my husband. Word gets around fast when you're married. Saw someone I dated once there and he was surprised I was married and had a kid and a house... kinda made me feel good, I'm not sure how to explain that. Mike has always been one to let me do my thing, though last night he got a bit drunk, I was pleased to see he made some friends with some of my coworkers. He even got their number and wants to hang out with them - which I am happy about. Just showing some interest in my life and that makes me happy that he puts up with my parties and tries a little.

Hope all is well and ya'll have a great new years. Here's the video I made. Song is by Laura Jansen.