Well, I am cherishing my time with Lucas and with Mike. I know that our lives are going to completely change - again - when Zoey comes into our beautiful family picture! I am sooo excited to meet her, and I'm ready to be finished with being pregnant -- and at the same time, I'm really in no rush considering labor is just scary in the thought it may not be as easy or like it was with Lucas. But I have faith and I know it'll be over before I know it and it will be 100% worth it. So not letting that stress me out. I guess I'm more concerned about Lucas and him getting jelouse or confused with Zoey. But I will remember him and it's hard to even think now that I can love another being as much as I love him. I know we are to love our spouses more than our children - or at least a different way - and I do... but it's still sooo hard to imagine I do! I guess it kinda comes down to that I'm not sure if I want any more kids after this one, because I want a life with my husband at some time... And at this point, by the time our kids get out of high school, we will be in our 40's. Which, is still very young - a lot younger than what my mom was when I graduated - by 8 years!
So, it's just a waiting game. i've been super tired lately - I don't remember being this tired last time at this point in my pregnancy but I do remember having bad back pain and it was just soo hard for me to sleep in the first place. I have just set up bad sleeping habits the last few weeks. I stay up til 4am (it's going on 5am now) and sleep all day (Lucas sleeps til 11am-noon) and then take a nap when he does and who knows even sleep when Mike gets home for a lil while. I either play on the computer or clean or whatever while everyone else is asleep. I like to clean the kitchen at night -- something about waking up to a clean kitchen with all the dishes clean, etc. I also spend time with the puppy. It's usually nice outside and if I wasn't pregnant I might be a lil more gutsy to go take the dog for a walk at this time of night but I'm pregnant and anymore -- you just don't know... So I stay home and play with him.
Mike has had good work hours and gets some drive time money so that helps. We're paying off debt and getting ready for the baby. Both living rooms are painted and so is the dining room. We are slowly getting the bedroom wallpaper off and we might paint the kitchen but I'm not holding my breath. Things are settling in. I wish we spent more time with friends and some family but we just get so comfortable, especially since Mike works so hard. He doesn't have to go to school until after my birthday in November, which seems later than before, but it works!
I'm filming our neighbor's wedding today, just because.. for free... It's not going to have HD cameras or anything like my job at First Kiss, but I bet I can actually give them a better product... But that's my opinion -- and Mike's... and a few others.. anyway..
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Zoey is very active but I've noticed - not once have I gotten kicked in the ribs! Not like I did with Lucas! She just rolls around in there and sticks her foot out. It's an amazing feeling and I know I'll miss that about pregnancy. I don't mind being pregnant, or the heat... but I've been just about pregnant it seems for two years and I'd like to let go of some responsibilities. But I should be getting to bed... I just edited this last week's video footage because I know today I will be busy with the camera not at home so we'll skip that day and yeah... Just wanted to update quickly.
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